time to spew a bunch of random stuff now.
i do these things on whims now, before i had to plan. back in the golden days
but like a tv show, it's got to go downhill at some point
anyway
one of the things that annoy me....is my damn elbow
i have a funny elbow
i was told that
it has an extra bit of bone jutting out a little
so that instead of just a simple smooth angle when it's bending, it looks like a double chin
my elbow has a double chin
what's annoying about that is
i cant set my elbow down on any kind of hard surface, cuz it's damn uncomfortable to have that extra chin jutting on a table, setting my whole elbow at an awkward angle
but besides that, its a decent elbow. in any other situation, it gets the job done
but now that i think back a little, i think because of that extra chin, my funny bone in my elbow/arm is extra sensitive.
i remember once back in middle school while we were playing flag football, some kid and i were reaching like hell for this ball flying in the air but his arm hit mine at exactly at the funny bone part or something like that cuz next thing i knew my whole arm lost feeling and was just flopping in air
yea he got the ball
o well makes no difference i wasn't gonna get it
i just had to look the part to get some participation points
i used to be a good runner and honestly if i kept it up i would still be but i've been lazy
anyway the thing that kinda bothered me about that was that because i was good at running, people just thought i was good at sports...at every damn sport
it made me hella self conscious, plus i had low self asteem
i daren't got near a ball during a game and when i did i freaked out and lost control of the ball before i even touch - which makes more sense if you've experienced what i experienced
anyway that was my little thing i felt like i had to get out
time to get back to homework. it's gonna kill me i know it.
this weather is gonna be the end of me too. Warm weather always makes me hella lazy. On the other hand, I make myself hella lazy too.
Dunno what that means, it made more sense in my head
sometimes i feel like i should keep any half decent thought in my head so i don't end up sounding like an idiot when it comes out wrong.
i do these things on whims now, before i had to plan. back in the golden days
but like a tv show, it's got to go downhill at some point
anyway
one of the things that annoy me....is my damn elbow
i have a funny elbow
i was told that
it has an extra bit of bone jutting out a little
so that instead of just a simple smooth angle when it's bending, it looks like a double chin
my elbow has a double chin
what's annoying about that is
i cant set my elbow down on any kind of hard surface, cuz it's damn uncomfortable to have that extra chin jutting on a table, setting my whole elbow at an awkward angle
but besides that, its a decent elbow. in any other situation, it gets the job done
but now that i think back a little, i think because of that extra chin, my funny bone in my elbow/arm is extra sensitive.
i remember once back in middle school while we were playing flag football, some kid and i were reaching like hell for this ball flying in the air but his arm hit mine at exactly at the funny bone part or something like that cuz next thing i knew my whole arm lost feeling and was just flopping in air
yea he got the ball
o well makes no difference i wasn't gonna get it
i just had to look the part to get some participation points
i used to be a good runner and honestly if i kept it up i would still be but i've been lazy
anyway the thing that kinda bothered me about that was that because i was good at running, people just thought i was good at sports...at every damn sport
it made me hella self conscious, plus i had low self asteem
i daren't got near a ball during a game and when i did i freaked out and lost control of the ball before i even touch - which makes more sense if you've experienced what i experienced
anyway that was my little thing i felt like i had to get out
time to get back to homework. it's gonna kill me i know it.
this weather is gonna be the end of me too. Warm weather always makes me hella lazy. On the other hand, I make myself hella lazy too.
Dunno what that means, it made more sense in my head
sometimes i feel like i should keep any half decent thought in my head so i don't end up sounding like an idiot when it comes out wrong.
wait don't all elbows have "double chins" O.O idk LOL
ReplyDeleteand i think you were generalizing
"every da*n sport"? o.o
then just tell people "Running's my thing!"
Or maybe u already did then no need to be self conscience, u dont need to prove anything
People like you if u'r not arrogant :D
(WHICH IS WHY I LOVE MY GDRAGON<333
He's quite humble offstage
He composes, writes, produces his own songs
Can sing, dance, rap, charisma liiive
Hardworking, apologizes when needed
Very goofy<3 but knows when to be serious
Very experimental, tried MANY Genres
also,
Extroverted version of INTJ LOL
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no i wasn't generalizing
ReplyDeleteyou don't know it but it actually contributed to me being more self conscious and having low self esteem.
well what is it that's making you feel self conscious / low self esteem? :O
DeleteSelf conscious of what?
Is it a subconscious (and very human) need for acceptance? o.o